I went to the doctor
today. I was interviewing a new one because my previous doctor informed me that
after seeing her colleague and then her for 20 years, she is selling her
practice. *sigh* I do not like breaking in new Doctors. They never listen to
me.
Regardless, this new
one was actually pretty great. So far. It was the first time in 20 years I have
seen a male doctor (other than the
emergency doctors). I have trouble listening to male doctors because they seem
to have this smug "oh you are just a silly woman" look on their face
when I tell them that I have done the research and no, my lab results are to
high! Being raised by an ER Doc and being a pharmacy assistant has given me
just enough knowledge that I understand what is going on but don't really know
what to do about it.
So anyways, this
visit was a meet and greet. Though, he told me that playing with toddlers,
assembly line diaper changing and having a preschool dance party doesn't
qualify as "exercise". He wants me to go for an adult walk (aka
faster than a toddlers pace ) everyday! He told me to take my husband. Not sure
what good that will do, he is slower than the toddlers.
He also told me to come back in 3 weeks so he can yell at me more. Nice.
Well then...
As I embark on this
new healthier me journey I am forced to ponder why I have had such trouble doing
this in the past and how I can make this time different, better or just. Not.
Suck! My problem with these endeavors is that I hate doing it. I never
feel better, just more tired and more itchy and more all around miserable.
"They" say you will feel so much
better, that the endorphins give you a high. Now I haven't done this in awhile
but I never remember coming out of a walk or work out thinking I feel great!
Even after self torturing myself through a few months of work outs, I always
walk away exhausted and freaking itchy. It may be just me but I itch more after
a workout. I itch constantly on a good day due to a chronic hive condition, why would I do anything to make that worse?
Another stumbling block I find is that I just have the time. The last thing I want to do once the kids are in bed is lace up my runners and go for a walk in -30c weather, then come home and shower and hope to get to bed at a decent time.
Do you have a favorite time to exercise? If you say early mornings, I will gawk at you then guffaw. My idea of getting up early is rolling out of bed with enough time to put my clothes on AND brush my hair and teeth before my doorbell is rung by arriving kids!
So whatever. I have
committed to this and now everyone out there knows. So I can be accountable to
all of you, right? At least I found my thing that I don't do well to get out
there and fail at!
I am using the
myFitnesspal app if anyone wants to follow my journey, you can friend me, just
send me an email at leanne@cadadoodle.com
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